Saturday, 28 November 2009

What if...?

What if you had a dream? A beautiful dream. One well worth waiting for, working towards. You knew right in the beginning, you’d have to earn the right to live the dream. You’d have to make something of yourself. You’d have to surpass expectations beyond anything even remotely ordinary. You’d have to shine so bright, that any detractors are blinded into submission, before the dream could be realised.

What if you realized, much later, that the dream may (will) never be realized? That the world will not let you have it, and it is not simply a question of a struggle with the world, but also with yourself. What if, despite every attempt at accepting what appears to be the inevitable, with every resolute promise of changing priorities, all you really seem to want, however foolishly, is that and only that dream. What if, despite the dream itself on so many occasions turning into a nightmare, convincing you that pursuance thereof can mean near inevitable ruin, you wanted nothing more than to be ruined?

What if you stoically stopped yourself from realizing at least a portion of that dream because you considered it somewhat premature and fleeting at that point, and then you later realised that that was probably the only bit of your foot that you might have gotten through the door? What if day after day you were tormented with the thought that every chance of achieving the dream was being wrenched away from you, and you fought with yourself reminding yourself that you knew this was inevitable? What if you are close to losing that fight for sanity, yet again?

What if one day it truly did become totally impossible to achieve the dream? Would you still do all you would need to to make yourself worthy of a dream you can never realize? Would you rise like a phoenix for no apparent purpose, a victor of a battle for a prize that is already lost?

I would. I will.

7 comments:

thusspakerono said...

Nope this is not a random post even if you paid me a K & a half to call it so...its not.
This post explores such subtle aspects of the thought process its got to be inspired.

Ehsaas..?

Mulling Over My Thoughts said...

Yeah, I know you can...it's only a matter of time before resplendent madness takes over and replaces the sanity! Just you wait...you aren't gonna die a lawyer, I can assure you!
:D

Material Girl said...

Amazing stuff, I'm not sure I'd gather the nerve to say Yes, but beautiful stuff.

FAITHLESS said...

@ Rono - Its not ehsaas.. are you blind.. read again.. you will understand what he is trying to say. read in between the line Rono.. Da is going mad again.. he too told me ehsaas.. i was like fuck you i have known you for long... Read in between the lines - Faithless

Da said...

in my defence, i didn't say it's ehsaas. i asked karan if he thinks it's ehsaas :) open for interpretation, i guess :)

Anonymous said...

this post will alwys be shrouded in mystery. wat could it be about? Wat wud b the cause to make one rise like a phoenix for no apparent reason....ur readers will alwys wonder..drop in hint or two..tht wud be interesting.

Da said...

:) merry christmas to my readers

@anonymous - you will appreciate the irony when you ask me to drop a hint as to what i'm talking about, while you remain anonymous ;) anyhow, i'm afraid i can't drop hints, that'll spoil the essential mystery behind the post... some who know me well have correctly identified what i'm talking about.. for the others, perhaps you can get an idea as to what i might be referring to...